a trainee's testimony - the full time training is the best place to be infused with God!

To be in the Lord’s recovery is a privilege; we are not only the called out ones, but also those called to be co-workers with God in His present move. It’s only a year, that I have been in the Lord’s recovery and the Lord brought me to the FTTL (the Full Time Training in London). This fact itself is a miracle to me.

I enjoyed every aspect of the training. Really, every single thing is set in such a way that we may gain the Lord and that He can deal with our whole being. I had to “push myself” and the same time the Lord just supplied my every need. I realized that the first term will never happen again, so I really have to pursue the Lord. I learned how to touch Him in my spirit, because “touching Jesus is all that really matters” (original song). These word resonated in my being all the time. I started to appreciate the corporate pray-reading and reading the Bible and the ministry in a prayerful way. There is so much light, so much nourishment. Without the training, I would be short of many experiences with the Lord.

The brothers in my locality stressed many things regarding the truth, but in the classes these became mine – they became a part of me! Every day, I can say, I saw something more of what is on the Lord’s heart. This created a vision and a burden, and I believe that this will change my life forever. From the time I saw something, I can no more say that “I didn’t see”. The vision is governing and protecting, that the Lord may have more space in my heart. This changes my relationship with people and towards many matters.

The life in the training is a practice of the kingdom life. I wasn’t bothered that much by the outward problems and difficulties that I faced, but I started to see my old man who is very active, wanting to fulfill God’s law. But I realized that only Christ can make it. I must be defeated and let Christ be victorious in me in every way. I am happy of God’s work in me: I feel more spiritual capacity, I love the saints more, I love the exercise, but still I see how much cleansing I still need, how much I still have to open myself so that the Lord may be settled in my heart.

It is a process. And these two years in FTTL are a unique opportunity to pour out everything and gain Him as my everything. I did not became a better man. I only started to see who I really am and how desperately I need to take Christ as my sanctification, as my only enjoyment, entertainment, and as everything every day. May the Lord gain many young ones which will give their best years to the Lord. There is not a better place to go and no better way to be infused by God than the Full Time Training!